God of silence

A meaningful song I heard recently...

The God of silence beckons me
To journey to my heart
Where He awaits
O Lord, I hear You calling tenderly
To You I come to gaze
At the beauty of Your face I cannot see

To rest in Your embrace I cannot feel
To dwell in Your love hurting but sweet
To be with You; to glimpse eternity

God of night, fount of all my delight.
Show Your light . . . that my heart, like Yours, burn bright.

Be still the torment of the night
Will not encumber you, if you believe
My child this darkness isn't emptiness
For here I mold your heart
Unto My image painfully you long to see

The self you yearn to be, but fear to know
The world from which you flee in Me find home
All these I give you, if you remain in Me

COUNTERPOINT:
I am ever here
My child, you need not fear
The dark will set you free
And bring your heart to Me

I am ever here
My child, you need not fear
The dark will set you free
And bring your heart to Me

The God of silence beckons me
To journey to my heart
Where He awaits me.

Everytime this verse came to me when I ask: "Can I go?"

CALLED OF GOD
" Whom shall I send, and who will go for us?  Then said I, Here am I; send me."   Isaiah 6:8 God did not address the call to Isaiah; Isaiah overheard God saying, "Who will go for us?" The call of God is not for the special few, it is for everyone. Whether or not I hear God's call depends upon the state of my ears; and what I hear depends upon my disposition. "Many are called but few are chosen," that is, few prove themselves the chosen ones. The chosen ones are those who have come into a relationship with God through Jesus Christ whereby their disposition has been altered and their ears unstopped, and they hear the still small voice questioning all the time, "Who will go for us?" It is not a question of God singling out a man and saying, "Now, you go." God did not lay a strong compulsion on Isaiah; Isaiah was in the presence of God and he overheard the call, and realized that there was nothing else for him but to say, in conscious freedom, "Here am I, send me." Get out of your mind the idea of expecting God to come with compulsions and pleadings. When our Lord called His disciples there was no irresistible compulsion from outside. The quiet passionate insistence of His "Follow Me" was spoken to men with every power wide awake. If we let the Spirit of God bring us face to face with God, we too shall hear something akin to what Isaiah heard, the still small voice of God; and in perfect freedom will say, "Here am I; send me." My heart burns when I read these from http://www.myutmost.org/01/0114.html & my tears roll down my cheek for no special reason, just want to Thank God that I can GO for Him regardless of all earthly reasons that say NO, you are not worth!

Amazing Grace!

"Amazing" is the word. God is AMAZING!

I just came back from Penang CCC for Bidor 3rd time Youth Camp...

This camp is amazing because of...
- God being loving & merciful
- Fellow partners being consistent in prayers
- Campers being attentive & responsive

Hallelujah!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KEEP .... ON

Today's YF sum up:

Psalm 1

¹ Blessed is the man
       who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked
       or stand in the way of sinners
       or sit in the seat of mockers. 

 

 ² But his delight is in the law of the LORD,
       and on his law he meditates day and night.

  

³ He is like a tree planted by streams of water,
       which yields its fruit in season
       and whose leaf does not wither.
       Whatever he does prospers.

 

 ⁴ Not so the wicked!
       They are like chaff
       that the wind blows away.

 ⁵ Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment,
       nor sinners in the assembly of the righteous.

 ⁶ For the LORD watches over the way of the righteous,
       but the way of the wicked will perish.

 I think Ian did a good job in summing up today!

clap.. clap.. clap..

If you forget everything else he said but remember 1 thing that will be good enough...

Who has never been once go/gone/went through a period of time when our Quiet Time spend/spent with our God become/becoming/became dry?

become/becoming/became  meaningless?

become/becoming/became bored?

become/becoming/became less consistent?

I am pretty sure except for Jesus who is perfect or maybe few more warriors of Faith in God can say I never experienced what being mentioned above before... the rest of the people sure once or twice or 3rd time or 100 times do/did feel that way before... unfortunately...

but ONE point from Ian today... Is what I'd been holding strong to... therefore I strong agreed with him that... we should never... I meant NEVER STOP STRUGGLING...

to stop struggling are much dangerous than keep struggling on...

KEEP MOVING FORWARD

(watch Meet the Robinson English cartoon)

NEVER GIVE UP

(In the bible, God never say to anyone maybe except Satan (I'm not sure), to give up, to let go of God)

so don't give up, keep trying, keep asking,  keep it up until we developed the habit of delighting in His words day & night...

thank You Lord!

What should or can I do?

A young, boy/man.

A long, old, girl, friend.

having similar sad background...

whom I cared for... having soooo much troubles & difficult times... yet I don't how to help them...

my heart is crying...  Lord, please grant me a loving & wise heart to love, to care, to help, to gently correct...

TO NEVER GIVE UP on them as You never give up on me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Argh!!! Annoying Midnight Call

Got people who is too free, nothing to do at night.
Not sleeping. Afternoon not working.

CRAZY ahhhhhhhhhh....

I got this annoying calls last 2 nights ago...
It rang in the middle of the night...
Think was around 3-4am....

1st time I thought it was an emergency... but I didn't manage to pick up that call....
then it called again but the number appeared as 012xxxxxxx which I don't know who...
So I hello... hello... hello.... no sounds.... siao....
sooo I hang up & go to sleep.......... soooooo sleepy....
then in case it ring again, I put it to silent mode....

Then next day went to work....
In the late afternoon, siao.... call again few times...
at 1st I just hang it up but then it rang again....
so I passed it to my guy colleague.... so he hello hello hello....
then he screamed.... YOU SICK AH.... in cantonese then hang up.....
then it rang again......... then another colleague pick it up........
he didn't say anything, just listen......
then hang up.....
then rang again.....
then since I on the online radio channel.... my colleague pick it up & leave my hp on the speaker then I turn the music loud loud.....
wahahahahaa........

After that, I think it helps to stop that "annoying person" to stop calling me..... phew.....

but next day got a missed call.... sweat -------____________-------'''' but just one then no more.... phew.....

crazy people........

3.0 One year had passed since I started...

WORK!

Time flies........ O_o ...... One year already....... sooooo fast....
Still remember my first day of work was on 2nd Sept 2008....

Still remember praying hard for God to lead me to the right place....
Still remember my fears.... because though I graduated & got my Degree but I didn't get any classification.....
sob sob... though my lecturers, classmates & friends would think I sure did well.... but I didn't....
I wasn't as smart as people view me to be..... blame my look la.... maybe I look smart >.< sigh....

Still remember my lecturer helped me & my classmates to look for suitable jobs for us....
Still remember the 2 interviews....

Basically I accepted the job after my first interview.... simply because God answered my prayers! ^_^

2nd interview is to confirm, my 1st choice is the One God chosen for me.....

I met a chubby, funny, fun, young, friendly, kind, motivating, flexible (can be toooo flexible -_-"") boss ever...
The interview is more like talking to a friend then really interview lo....
He helped me to feel relax & I'm very honest to tell him I didn't get a classification for my Degree......
Didn't even finished my final year project (thank God I still can graduate...... SoooOooooOooooo thankful)
I told him my strengths & weaknesses (I think I emphasized on my weaknesses more, as if to tell him, it is silly for you to hire someone like me)

Surprisingly & grateful enough..... my boss like comforting me, saying is ok even if my programming skills not so good, there are other areas beside programming...... i was like.... wow, God knows!

I prayed that I will meet a good(averagely) boss (regardless Christian or not), will have a good working environment (which I can feel comfortable & able to perform best), will meet Christian & Non-Christian colleagues (so that I can encourage or be encouraged & have opportunity to share gospels)

Guess what??

God answered all that......... I was O_O in awe & thankful for it....
because I'd worked more than 10 part time jobs before since F3 (15 years old)....
so I know which type of environment I like, which I don't.... which type of bosses I really not comfortable working with & which I love to work with & give my best....

Seriously, I'd some really bad experiences.... kena scolded.... kinda kena fire before..... (though were just part time jobs)

So I really like my job now ^_^
My boss allow us to online freely, listen to music (any online radio stations, any musics), eat snacks & make any types of drink (from company petty cash.... keke), joke with each other, talk like friends, eat lunch together, go jungle tracking/short trips together, go dinner & celebrate colleagues birthday together.... (soooo much like a family).... also allow us to kick ball in the office when we are stress (hahaha)....

even though there are areas that I can "complaints" about this job.... like working long hours, having a too flexible (means no details boss) that are times I'm soooo gen cheong, lost, sad, pressure & stress..... & etc....... well I think there isn't any office jobs that can totally be free of stress.... I guess I like it more than I would complaint about it....... Am slowly learning how to handle stress.... instead of panicking....

oh ya, I can get along well with most of my colleagues too.... for now there are 9 of us (at Malaysia), at Ireland, Dublin there are about 10 (I don't know all but few who I have to skype or chat with, we are like friends too), there are also few colleagues from partner company....

Where to find o.... such boss & working place.... kekekeke.... I guess I will be staying a little longer unless God has another work ready for me.....

QMS rocks!!!!! hehe.... i will upload our Family Photo soon.... kekekekee..... very cute wan.... ^_^

Our Customer Relationship Management (CRM) system --> main product is named as --> ULYSSES!!!
Is a Cool name isn't it?? More interestingly, the name came from a thick Irish Novel.... wow!!!

Here is where we are located in Malaysia.... Plaza Kelana Jaya.... near the lake o:
http://wikimapia.org/12186137/QMS-Asia-Pacific-CRM-Software-Sdn-Bhd

Dublin website:
http://www.qms-software.com/

Malaysia website:
http://www.crm-software.com.my/