Time to change job?? Time to drive??

SIGH..........................................

Should I change job even though I love my job or
should I start driving even though I scare to drive or
should I take teksi?

Is it wrong without a car, will one die without having one?
Is it weird to scare driving even though most of everyone have a car?
Is it strange to look smart but one is not?

..........................................SIGH

I love my job but I am not smart enough to get everything done as wish.
I love my job but I am having transport problem, I hope to stop giving problems to my friends.

I hate to be a burden to others, but I am a burden.

Oh God, what should I do or not do?

God of silence

A meaningful song I heard recently...

The God of silence beckons me
To journey to my heart
Where He awaits
O Lord, I hear You calling tenderly
To You I come to gaze
At the beauty of Your face I cannot see

To rest in Your embrace I cannot feel
To dwell in Your love hurting but sweet
To be with You; to glimpse eternity

God of night, fount of all my delight.
Show Your light . . . that my heart, like Yours, burn bright.

Be still the torment of the night
Will not encumber you, if you believe
My child this darkness isn't emptiness
For here I mold your heart
Unto My image painfully you long to see

The self you yearn to be, but fear to know
The world from which you flee in Me find home
All these I give you, if you remain in Me

COUNTERPOINT:
I am ever here
My child, you need not fear
The dark will set you free
And bring your heart to Me

I am ever here
My child, you need not fear
The dark will set you free
And bring your heart to Me

The God of silence beckons me
To journey to my heart
Where He awaits me.

Everytime this verse came to me when I ask: "Can I go?"

CALLED OF GOD
" Whom shall I send, and who will go for us?  Then said I, Here am I; send me."   Isaiah 6:8 God did not address the call to Isaiah; Isaiah overheard God saying, "Who will go for us?" The call of God is not for the special few, it is for everyone. Whether or not I hear God's call depends upon the state of my ears; and what I hear depends upon my disposition. "Many are called but few are chosen," that is, few prove themselves the chosen ones. The chosen ones are those who have come into a relationship with God through Jesus Christ whereby their disposition has been altered and their ears unstopped, and they hear the still small voice questioning all the time, "Who will go for us?" It is not a question of God singling out a man and saying, "Now, you go." God did not lay a strong compulsion on Isaiah; Isaiah was in the presence of God and he overheard the call, and realized that there was nothing else for him but to say, in conscious freedom, "Here am I, send me." Get out of your mind the idea of expecting God to come with compulsions and pleadings. When our Lord called His disciples there was no irresistible compulsion from outside. The quiet passionate insistence of His "Follow Me" was spoken to men with every power wide awake. If we let the Spirit of God bring us face to face with God, we too shall hear something akin to what Isaiah heard, the still small voice of God; and in perfect freedom will say, "Here am I; send me." My heart burns when I read these from http://www.myutmost.org/01/0114.html & my tears roll down my cheek for no special reason, just want to Thank God that I can GO for Him regardless of all earthly reasons that say NO, you are not worth!