Friday, November 27, 2009

Amazing Grace!

"Amazing" is the word. God is AMAZING!

I just came back from Penang CCC for Bidor 3rd time Youth Camp...

This camp is amazing because of...
- God being loving & merciful
- Fellow partners being consistent in prayers
- Campers being attentive & responsive

Hallelujah!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, October 19, 2009

KEEP .... ON

Today's YF sum up:

Psalm 1

1 Blessed is the man
       who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked
       or stand in the way of sinners
       or sit in the seat of mockers. 
 
 2 But his delight is in the law of the LORD,
       and on his law he meditates day and night.

  
3 He is like a tree planted by streams of water,
       which yields its fruit in season
       and whose leaf does not wither.
       Whatever he does prospers.
 
 4 Not so the wicked!
       They are like chaff
       that the wind blows away.

 5 Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment,
       nor sinners in the assembly of the righteous.

 6 For the LORD watches over the way of the righteous,
       but the way of the wicked will perish.

 I think Ian did a good job in summing up today!
clap.. clap.. clap..

If you forget everything else he said but remember 1 thing that will be good enough...

Who has never been once go/gone/went through a period of time when our Quiet Time spend/spent with our God become/becoming/became dry?
become/becoming/became  meaningless?
become/becoming/became bored?
become/becoming/became less consistent?

I am pretty sure except for Jesus who is perfect or maybe few more warriors of Faith in God can say I never experienced what being mentioned above before... the rest of the people sure once or twice or 3rd time or 100 times do/did feel that way before... unfortunately...

but ONE point from Ian today... Is what I'd been holding strong to... therefore I strong agreed with him that... we should never... I meant NEVER STOP STRUGGLING...

to stop struggling are much dangerous than keep struggling on...

KEEP MOVING FORWARD
(watch Meet the Robinson English cartoon)

NEVER GIVE UP
(In the bible, God never say to anyone maybe except Satan (I'm not sure), to give up, to let go of God)

so don't give up, keep trying, keep asking,  keep it up until we developed the habit of delighting in His words day & night...

thank You Lord!



What should or can I do?

A young, boy/man.
A long, old, girl, friend.

having similar sad background...

whom I cared for... having soooo much troubles & difficult times... yet I don't how to help them...

my heart is crying...  Lord, please grant me a loving & wise heart to love, to care, to help, to gently correct...

TO NEVER GIVE UP on them as You never give up on me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, October 9, 2009

Argh!!! Annoying Midnight Call

Got people who is too free, nothing to do at night.
Not sleeping. Afternoon not working.

CRAZY ahhhhhhhhhh....

I got this annoying calls last 2 nights ago...
It rang in the middle of the night...
Think was around 3-4am....

1st time I thought it was an emergency... but I didn't manage to pick up that call....
then it called again but the number appeared as 012xxxxxxx which I don't know who...
So I hello... hello... hello.... no sounds.... siao....
sooo I hang up & go to sleep.......... soooooo sleepy....
then in case it ring again, I put it to silent mode....

Then next day went to work....
In the late afternoon, siao.... call again few times...
at 1st I just hang it up but then it rang again....
so I passed it to my guy colleague.... so he hello hello hello....
then he screamed.... YOU SICK AH.... in cantonese then hang up.....
then it rang again......... then another colleague pick it up........
he didn't say anything, just listen......
then hang up.....
then rang again.....
then since I on the online radio channel.... my colleague pick it up & leave my hp on the speaker then I turn the music loud loud.....
wahahahahaa........

After that, I think it helps to stop that "annoying person" to stop calling me..... phew.....

but next day got a missed call.... sweat -------____________-------'''' but just one then no more.... phew.....

crazy people........

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

3.0 One year had passed since I started...

WORK!

Time flies........ O_o ...... One year already....... sooooo fast....
Still remember my first day of work was on 2nd Sept 2008....

Still remember praying hard for God to lead me to the right place....
Still remember my fears.... because though I graduated & got my Degree but I didn't get any classification.....
sob sob... though my lecturers, classmates & friends would think I sure did well.... but I didn't....
I wasn't as smart as people view me to be..... blame my look la.... maybe I look smart >.< sigh....

Still remember my lecturer helped me & my classmates to look for suitable jobs for us....
Still remember the 2 interviews....

Basically I accepted the job after my first interview.... simply because God answered my prayers! ^_^

2nd interview is to confirm, my 1st choice is the One God chosen for me.....

I met a chubby, funny, fun, young, friendly, kind, motivating, flexible (can be toooo flexible -_-"") boss ever...
The interview is more like talking to a friend then really interview lo....
He helped me to feel relax & I'm very honest to tell him I didn't get a classification for my Degree......
Didn't even finished my final year project (thank God I still can graduate...... SoooOooooOooooo thankful)
I told him my strengths & weaknesses (I think I emphasized on my weaknesses more, as if to tell him, it is silly for you to hire someone like me)

Surprisingly & grateful enough..... my boss like comforting me, saying is ok even if my programming skills not so good, there are other areas beside programming...... i was like.... wow, God knows!

I prayed that I will meet a good(averagely) boss (regardless Christian or not), will have a good working environment (which I can feel comfortable & able to perform best), will meet Christian & Non-Christian colleagues (so that I can encourage or be encouraged & have opportunity to share gospels)

Guess what??

God answered all that......... I was O_O in awe & thankful for it....
because I'd worked more than 10 part time jobs before since F3 (15 years old)....
so I know which type of environment I like, which I don't.... which type of bosses I really not comfortable working with & which I love to work with & give my best....

Seriously, I'd some really bad experiences.... kena scolded.... kinda kena fire before..... (though were just part time jobs)

So I really like my job now ^_^
My boss allow us to online freely, listen to music (any online radio stations, any musics), eat snacks & make any types of drink (from company petty cash.... keke), joke with each other, talk like friends, eat lunch together, go jungle tracking/short trips together, go dinner & celebrate colleagues birthday together.... (soooo much like a family).... also allow us to kick ball in the office when we are stress (hahaha)....

even though there are areas that I can "complaints" about this job.... like working long hours, having a too flexible (means no details boss) that are times I'm soooo gen cheong, lost, sad, pressure & stress..... & etc....... well I think there isn't any office jobs that can totally be free of stress.... I guess I like it more than I would complaint about it....... Am slowly learning how to handle stress.... instead of panicking....

oh ya, I can get along well with most of my colleagues too.... for now there are 9 of us (at Malaysia), at Ireland, Dublin there are about 10 (I don't know all but few who I have to skype or chat with, we are like friends too), there are also few colleagues from partner company....

Where to find o.... such boss & working place.... kekekeke.... I guess I will be staying a little longer unless God has another work ready for me.....

QMS rocks!!!!! hehe.... i will upload our Family Photo soon.... kekekekee..... very cute wan.... ^_^

Our Customer Relationship Management (CRM) system --> main product is named as --> ULYSSES!!!
Is a Cool name isn't it?? More interestingly, the name came from a thick Irish Novel.... wow!!!

Here is where we are located in Malaysia.... Plaza Kelana Jaya.... near the lake o:
http://wikimapia.org/12186137/QMS-Asia-Pacific-CRM-Software-Sdn-Bhd

Dublin website:
http://www.qms-software.com/

Malaysia website:
http://www.crm-software.com.my/

Friday, September 18, 2009

2.0 You have your own room?

Be ware... 
Hope not to make you O_o again...
To some people will sure think...
IS WEIRD...
Hehe...^_^
Okok... from my last 1.0 Post...
I mentioned "Shared Room" right?
Hmm... If you know me... You might know my age too...
Do you?
Anyway, not young anymore...
Working mah... (though started for... Post 3.0 will reveal) 
Heee.... =D
okokokok... I remember... Back to main topic...
Shared Room... Oh yes... since I was young until now (guess my age) 
I do not own a room of my own...
O_o
sHoCkInG????
Is REAL...
I don't have a room for herself since young...
sob sob... Now... I think you should be GRATEFUL if you are having a room... for yourselves...
no matter the size... right?!
Well, don't worry... I'm not that pathetic... I'm actually... used to it...
Never have ONE room before sooooo not sure how sad it is to suddenly have to share room with others...
Just that thought of sharing this... Hehe...
Actually not many people would know about this I think...
Hmm... ya... really not many...
Unless someone asks or I suddenly talk about things about my house...
I still remembered People's reaction...
WHAT??
HUH??
OH NO??
& start helping me to think of ways that I can have a room for myself...
Hehe...
Ok... should tell you why I need to share room too??
Yes?
Ok la...
Is because I got big family mah...
means many family members...
It started with 7...
Dad, Mom, Brother x3, Sister & myself ... Yes... I am the youngest...
heee.... =D
My house is double stories, 3 rooms bedrooms upstairs... 1 store room downstair... 
(Half of the room used to be my sister & 3rd brother sleeping place)
Sooo when I was young, I slept on the floor with mattress...
A master bedroom (upstairs) with my Dad & Mom... If I remembered correctly... 
(most of the time, my brother... Mike [Oldest brother] will also sleep in the same room)
because that was the only room with Aircond lor... though he had his own room...
so was my 2nd brother... a room for himself... 
(since his room most smelly, very seldom will  any of us went in or slept there... last time that was...)
my dad also sometimes like to join me to sleep on the mattress... he said more comfy... hmm...
I think I was OK... (sometimes when it was Real HOT season... my brothers will also join in lor >_<
the floor will be crowded with or without mattresses...

More interestingly, usually friends who came to my house & to the room... can't find the aircond...
Kaakakakakaa...
They will look for it for some times or ask eh... got aircond meh?? where ah??
Can you guess??
heheheehe... maybe not...
The AIRCOND actually stayed at the bottom left corner of the room...
you must be HUH??
 Old design... easier to wash I think...
It was a really OLD type of aircond...
Big & Fat & Thick... hahaha...
Now I don't see it anywhere anymore...
& yes... the wall got a big hole... if you are asking...
then have to put simen... XD
& now also got a big piece of calendar covering the wall... the hole actually... kekeke...
Don't be confused... like I said I'm not saying I'm sad for not having my own room... or feel pathetic...
but well... over the years... things changed...
my family members now all sleeping different places also.... hahahaaha XD
(except my mom I guess, the queen of the house)
I find it funny as I'm stating it now...
 Let's see...
Master bedroom -> 
Mom (always sleeping on the Bed)
Me (used to: floor -> now: half of my mom's bed)
Sister (used to: downstair store room -> work: outside, rent room -> married: sister in law's house ->
now: together with husband, my niece & nephew... filled up the floor with 3 mattresses >_<)
.... due to some reasons ...
yes... they all staying with us now...
Mike (Oldest brother) ----> used to be own room (no aircond) & master bedroom floor... 
NOW: with wife, Puchong...
clap clap clap... hehe...
sooo my 3rd brother get a hold of that room (with aircond) after he left...
he used to sleep downstair store room, 2nd brother's room at the floor also I think... should be... hehe...
 2nd brother ---> used to be his smelly bed.... now: not sooo smelly bed (but still... no one likes to sleep there)
because sharing room with my dad... (who will cleaned his smelly room for him)
He decided to move out of the Master bedroom when that room added an aircond...
But well... He still preferred to sleep on the floor with mattress though...
Meaning now the store room is a real store room without anyone sleeping there,
it is really hot, stuffy & dusty lor...
Some friends suggested to make the store room half mine since no one occupy... 
but...
I'm too lazy to clean it up &...
I'm used to sharing room maybe... hahaha...
Oooo... I just realised... really... hmm...
I am the only sibling who don't have a room for self before...
& starting only during my College Time... I realised...
It is really not convenient to know have a room for myself...
I am always shifting... ... ...
One day could be 2-4/5 times...
haha...
shift what?
O.. shifting or hopping from 1 place to another... from Master Bedroom to Store Room (with desktop-used to used that) to Brother's Room or Living Room (where I am now)... 
The sequence could be different though =P
always kena shhhu... when the owner of the room demands it back lo...
what to do... life is hard isn't it...
thank GOD I'm used to it... heheheehe...
well... certainly, it is nice & convenient to have my own room if I have I believed...
nevermind lo... wait for the chance if there is... =) hehe...
well I guess the living room can be mine during the late nights...
however... I love to sleep... hehe...
wah... almost 2am... I need to zzZ already... hehe...
so... Goood Night....
to be continue... wait for Post 3.0... coming soon...
 

1.0 You not doing homework??

Hehe... I find it really funny... who?
My parents who are...
Yesterday I brought down my already ON laptop from upstairs 
(my shared room --> 2.0 Post will explain further) 
to the living room...
As I mentioned my laptop was on & guess what am I doing?
I clicked "space" to play...
Well, watching anime... hehe...
so obviously there are some Japanese characters saying something
-------> similar to toyota.. susuki.. hyundai.. kawaii.. gambatte.. 
(if you are limited understanding of Japanese words)
Kekeke...
As my dad was about to go to bed...
He suddenly asked me...
In CANTONESE...
Lei em hai joh gong foh ah?? Lei tai ga toon??
Direct Translation are: You not doing homework ah?? You watching CaRtOoN...??
I was like "duh" --->  ===____===''''
So I answered...
Ngor joh gen gong loh... Zhong sai joh mei gong foh meh...
Translation ----> I'm working lo... still need do homework wan meh...
Ahahahaha... my dad is funny... forever thinking if I open desktop or laptop means I need to do homework... XD
& guess what?
My mom actually did the same thing before I went downstairs with my laptop ""all the time""
Lei oi joh gong foh lok lao ha... Ngor dei oi fen gao joh...
translation goes to >>>>>>>>>>> If you want to do homework go downstairs to do, we all need to sleep dy...
(2.0 will explain why she said WE ALL need to sleep...)
Hahaahahaha... Both my parent same-same... I forgot to explain to my mom... XD 
I no longer need to do homework... 
I should tell them SooOOooooOOooooooOOooon... Heeeehehehe...
Need to remind them, I'm working already!!!!!
By the way, Sunday is my Mommy's birthday o... will celebrate together with some relatives & friends...
maybe 4 tables... O_o
Well not every year like this la... is some special birthday according to "Chinese Culture or something like that"
I can't remember what what what... ;-P
to be continue ..... next ..... go to .... version 2.0

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

... ... ... sad ... ... ... sad ... ... ...


Many friends are having a tough time,
sad news just fly over one after another...

Some of them are my close friends, some maybe not very but still my friends & people I would care about...
Hearing, reading about their sad stories make me really sad...

What make it worst is, I don't know what to do to help...

Just pray? That's all? hmm... I wish to do more but not sure how...
or do they really want my help? Some maybe yes, some maybe no...

Oh Lord, help... Help them & help me too... Forgive them & forgive me too...

People said I am always cheerful... well yes I am I guess...
but doesn't mean cheerful people cannot be sad...
just that I seldom express in front of people I guess...
Who would like to make other people sad just because we are not happy...
most sensible people won't
but in front of God, there is no hiding
or there is no need to think that we will make Him sad
Of cause He WILL cause He loves us sooooo very much...
is because He knows every details of our lives...
He knows our PAIN...
He knows our SADNESS...
He knows our THOUGHTS...
Our DEEPEST FEELINGS...
& He can HEAL when no one else can...
Would you wanna be heal?
Do I wanna be heal too?
Well, very much Yes... &
the wisdom to help others to see that God is truly our HELPER in times of need & in times of rejoicing,
He rejoice with us too...

Your GOD & my GOD is a personal, real, true GOD that is gracious & merciful...
Won't you take Him?
Won't you let Him be in control?


I pray that we all can experience Him in a real & personal way...

God loves you...
more than I can ever care for you, my friends...
I don't know how & what are the best ways...
but He definitely knows...

LET HIM BE THERE FOR YOU!

Friday, September 11, 2009

1 Cor chapter 2

1 And I, brethren, when I came to you, came not with excellency of speech or of wisdom, declaring unto you the testimony of God.
2 For I determined not to know any thing among you, save Jesus Christ, and him crucified.
3 And I was with you in weakness, and in fear, and in much trembling.
4 And my speech and my preaching was not with enticing words of man's wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power:
5 That your faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God.

Paul being known as a confident man & very courageous said something like tat which all christians can identify themselves with:

"I was with you in weakness, and in fear, and in much trembling, my speech and my preaching was not with enticing words of man's wisdom,
but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power, your faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God"

Sad to say, most christians always wait for the right moment or when we are very sure or when we are courageous to share the gospel or special occassions,
BUT look at what Paul said again. It is actually nothing wrong to be like him, he is also a human being like us after all who needs God's Spirit & Power to preach God's Word,
So can we rely on our own knowledge to do it?? to lead a group of people? to lead CG? to tell gospel whether to children, youth or adult?
The answer will be NO... not without God's Spirit & Power for apart from Him we can do nothing.

Just a simple yet challenging thought inspired from His Word... Hope to encourage you!